2 weeks

Its been 2 weeks. At 4:51pm, 2 weeks ago, my sweet Emma was born and passed. I miss her so.

I remember complaining and not knowing how i would afford christmas for 2 kids. Now i just long to have 2 kids to buy for.

Someone was talking about how they love fall. And i do, too. But, this fall, i had planned on spending with my new sweet baby girl and my sweet little boy. Now i get to visit a grave and look at pics of my baby girl whos passed on. Its really not fair.

I still long to be pregnant again. The craving hasnt dissipated any :/

I look at her photos every day. And i fear ill forget what it was like to hold her in my arms after a while. I just want her here, alive, safe, with me til she grows old. Thats all...