dreams?
If anyone knows me, they know I dream all the time, and I dream crazy. Except when I'm pregnant.
I usually wish my dreams would go away, because they're nuts. But now, all I do is wish to dream of my Emma. And nothing so far. Almost 8 weeks, and nothing. I look at her pics right before bedtime. I always kiss her little face goodnight on the screen. Tell her I love her more than anything, just as if she were right beside me just like Shade.
Mom dreamed that we were all in a hospital, I was in labor, and she went out to use the bathroom and to smoke her e-cig... and then she came back and I was holding a baby girl. It wasn't Emma. It was some other baby, but it was mine, and it was healthy and alive. Then she dreamed that we were going somewhere and amongst all our luggage was a diaper bag for a girl.
Do dreams mean anything? I have to say yes, considering the only dream I remember while pregnant with Emma, I was having was a nightmare. The morning before my last appt when I found everything out. It was essentially a bad labor experience and in the dream I was told that she had a major heart defect and wouldn't survive outside of my womb. Then I woke up at 0500 and couldn't sleep anymore. Even though I didn't have to be up for like 5 more hours. Then... the rest of that day is a blur.
I've had other dreams that actually came true or foretold things I couldn't have known. Is it God's way of warning me? Or God's way of showing me something neat every now and again? Maybe. I don't know.
All I know, since I can't turn back time, why can't I just dream of her? I already want to sleep all day, why can't it be productive?
xoxo
I usually wish my dreams would go away, because they're nuts. But now, all I do is wish to dream of my Emma. And nothing so far. Almost 8 weeks, and nothing. I look at her pics right before bedtime. I always kiss her little face goodnight on the screen. Tell her I love her more than anything, just as if she were right beside me just like Shade.
Mom dreamed that we were all in a hospital, I was in labor, and she went out to use the bathroom and to smoke her e-cig... and then she came back and I was holding a baby girl. It wasn't Emma. It was some other baby, but it was mine, and it was healthy and alive. Then she dreamed that we were going somewhere and amongst all our luggage was a diaper bag for a girl.
Do dreams mean anything? I have to say yes, considering the only dream I remember while pregnant with Emma, I was having was a nightmare. The morning before my last appt when I found everything out. It was essentially a bad labor experience and in the dream I was told that she had a major heart defect and wouldn't survive outside of my womb. Then I woke up at 0500 and couldn't sleep anymore. Even though I didn't have to be up for like 5 more hours. Then... the rest of that day is a blur.
I've had other dreams that actually came true or foretold things I couldn't have known. Is it God's way of warning me? Or God's way of showing me something neat every now and again? Maybe. I don't know.
All I know, since I can't turn back time, why can't I just dream of her? I already want to sleep all day, why can't it be productive?
xoxo
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