1 month

Today marks 1 month, since 9/2/14...one of the best days of my life, because i met my Emma for the first time, but the worst because i lost her.
I know just 2 days ago i blogged about 4 weeks since her passing.
I plan to blog more in depth tomorrow, but couldnt bare not to mention what would've been her 1 month mark.
Still hurts like the day it happened. The more i stay home, the more raw my grief is. We picked out her headstone yesterday. Its not right that i was at a funeral home, picking out my babys headstone for her grave. I should be picking out fall outfits and going through baby clothes shes outgrown. Surrounded by flowers and girly prints.
I went fishing on the lake today with Buddy. I cant wait to blog about all the beautiful things i saw today that reminded me of Emma. From the ripples on the water to the breeze through the mountains, to the sunset reflecting on the lake.
Its true when they say shes everywhere around me. I can feel her presence with every leaf and every acorn that falls to the ground. With every drop of rain and every ray of sunshine.
Her beauty is unmatched...
My stomach is in knots. Likely because i am blogging. Sometimes that happens.

Life is weird.
I miss my babygirl.