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There are some things in the world so peaceful, so silent... But so powerful it takes your breath away. Emma was one of those. She never made a sound. She looked so peaceful, sleeping an eternal sleep. 

Last night as I was getting out of my vehicle after work around 1am, I noticed there wasn't a cloud in the sky. Only a million stars. And thousands of fireflies. It was pitch black, I don't know where the moon was. No cars on the road. No barking dogs and no crowing roosters and no loud neighbors. Everyone peacefully asleep, or at least in their houses quietly. It was like being in a light up snow globe. The sky and heavens lit up with stars that are countless. Twinkling.   The entire mountains surrounding me east, west, north, & south; sparkling and blinking with little yellow lights floating in the air. It was like a movie! Something only CGI could create. But it was real. 

It was but a fleeting moment passing me by with nobody to share it with except nature and maybe Emma. Just like her, known and loved by many in theory, but only fiercely loved and seen and experienced by few. Just for a fleeting moment. 

This morning, after a long and busy shift at work, my first shift back from vacation....*****  Of course it would be like that, can't ease back into the ER (haha). ***** I'm here on the porch. I couldn't sleep past 8:30 which is fine because 6 hours is decent enough sleep and I need to not sleep til 10:00 anyway. I got up and fixed a bowl of cereal, put a few stray things from the suitcase away. Watered the plants on the porch. Fixed Shade his lunch plate and a container of juice for the day, since Nanny is watching him here again today.  I took this cereal to the front porch.  I'm enjoying my hanging plants and my potted plants. I need more though. I can never have enough. I'll fix that maybe Thursday ;) it's the perfect temperature to me. There's a constant breeze. There's 235 birds chirping. Emma's wind chimes are chiming ever so softly it's almost unnatural how that sound can be created with no person actually purposely doing it. Until right then, there had been no annoying loud muffler-less cars or tricked out four wheelers. Just a stupid rooster that won't stop crowing at the neighbors house.  Just bird chirping, woodpeckers pecking, wind rustling the greenery around, then hot summer sun getting ready to peek over the mountain behind the house, and Emma's chimes. And occasionally Shade's wooden chimes clicking in randomly. Aside from the other auditory annoyances, and impending work, it's a beautiful morning fit for a beautiful baby girl. I'm sure she'd not mind the stupid rooster crowing every 8 seconds (literally) but I'm trying to ignore it. It's surely not its fault that its owner is an idiot who bred and keeps it to fight other roosters. 

Anyhow. Our trip back was safe and uneventful. I found some things at Marshalls. No luck on the sunflower kitchen decor. I did find a dish towel that matches but it's not sunflower 🌻. Found baby Isaac (we are 23 weeks today and have an appt to review the MFMs anatomy scan tomorrow) some more outfits. Shade a toy. Sometimes it's okay to get back into the swing of things bad as I hate it. There's perks to everything I guess. Just have to be in the mood to see it. 

If anything else she has taught me this. 

Xoxo