Twenty-Ninth Tuesday
As we approach April Fool's day, I am only pre-occupied with the fact that I am afraid I am going to see a pregnancy announcement on April 1st. Not that I care if anyone announces. I am always happy (albeit bitter, for whatever reason I can't figure out, well I know why but its jealousy and grief based) for people when they find out they're expecting, but not if its a joke. Because that is not funny. I posted this:
"Not trying to be a killjoy or anything, but seriously, post a pregnancy test on your facebook and let me find out you don't have a bun in the oven for real...I am sorry ahead of time, but you WILL deal with the wrath of my pregnancy/grief hormones. That is a horrible combination. I'm not really sorry ahead of time by the way. I never ever thought this was funny, ever... not even before I was ever pregnant, myself, or before I joined the "baby loss" community, very unwillingly. Its never been funny. Having a child is a BLESSING, not a JOKE.
"Not trying to be a killjoy or anything, but seriously, post a pregnancy test on your facebook and let me find out you don't have a bun in the oven for real...I am sorry ahead of time, but you WILL deal with the wrath of my pregnancy/grief hormones. That is a horrible combination. I'm not really sorry ahead of time by the way. I never ever thought this was funny, ever... not even before I was ever pregnant, myself, or before I joined the "baby loss" community, very unwillingly. Its never been funny. Having a child is a BLESSING, not a JOKE.
Basically, when you joke about being pregnant, firstly, it can be
incredibly hurtful to those of us who have lost children. Lost
pregnancies. Endured years of infertility with or without treatment.
People who have tried for years with unexplained fertility, begging for a
child, and you're over here thinking its hilarious to joke about it.
You name it!!
Secondly, its like saying "oh THANK GOD I AM NOT PREGNANT! BECAUSE GOD KNOWS IF THIS WASN'T A JOKE, IT WOULD BE THE WORST THING EVARRRR TO HAPPEN TO ME!" no, it wouldn't be. You should be so lucky...
Again, I'm all about jokes. Funny stuff. I have a ridiculously warped and dark sense of humor even. But I never found this funny.
Thankye."
I attached this link with it; https://www.facebook.com/MomofanAngelwristbands/photos/a.128174277239513.21888.120949237962017/882994305090836/?type=1&theater
It was just saying, look.... don't do it. Because it's not a joke and its not funny and it never will be. I know some jokes hurt people's feelings and I do not expect people to walk on eggshells around me, but I do expect people to be mindful of others feelings, not even just mine, but everyone's once they have reached the age of what, 16? Its just common human courtesy. That's all.
Anyway, I was sitting on the porch...Tuesday, even, I think... and the wind was crazy. I was aggravated because our homeowner's insurance was having issues with some of the things that we did when we upgraded our home once we moved. Hey. it only took them 1.5 years to finally realize we moved, even though I told them 3958 times. I got aggravated about a few different things, and ended up very emotional on my porch loveseat with my bacon sandwich and my breakfast drink. Of course, the wind was blowing... but as I was being, emotional, the wind really kicked up. The wind chimes went crazy... I just looked over and stared at them. They just relentlessly kept ringing, loudly, too. I felt like Emma was there with me with her arm around me telling me it would be okay... of course I don't have that in person, but I'd like to think now and again I am allowed to share little private moments with her. Maybe nobody else feels them. Maybe they're not really real. But they are to me.
I can finally see the light at the end of this semester. I have a couple more discussions due on my clinical, and to turn in this powerpoint I put together for my group. On my 2nd half of this semester class, I have quite a few things left to do, but at least its nothing like what was due on the first half, and at least the final paper is shorter, and about something a little simpler. My instructor this class is a bit more lax as well, which always makes me happy.
Angie's household/wedding shower was today. She got a lot of awesome stuff. Personally, we got her 3 towels, a hand towel, 3 dish towels, measuring cups, a kitchen timer, chip clips, an owl towel/mitt set, a heavy duty shower liner, a pizza baking pan, a set of 4 anchor brand glass tumblers, a set of Corelle dishes, and I stuffed it all in a big canvas chevron print tote lol.
I don't have a whole lot else to say this time... unfortunately I've been kind of quiet this week. I've not done anything incredibly interesting, and for lack of better words........its been boring. I am still waiting on the weather to warm back up from this Sarvis winter. Peanut is growing well. I am so hoping to get a glimpse of gender (everyone feels girl, and I find myself feeling the same 99% of the time, even though my intuition may be clouded by my want for a 2nd chance at a girl) on the 15th.
I plan to head to Damascus for a weekend of kayaking very soon. I dunno exactly what we will do with Shade. I wish I had a kayak that Shade could ride in.
Anyway, I feel like sharing this article:
http://www.kentuckyforkentucky.com/blogs/news/15715096-hell-for-certain-kentucky
Very well written, interesting read. And LOCAL, of course.
Speaking of Local, I found out that our fav cafe in London did in fact shut down. Local133 is closed for now:( yet another thing that disappeared in September 2014.
Love you baby girl <3
xoxo
Secondly, its like saying "oh THANK GOD I AM NOT PREGNANT! BECAUSE GOD KNOWS IF THIS WASN'T A JOKE, IT WOULD BE THE WORST THING EVARRRR TO HAPPEN TO ME!" no, it wouldn't be. You should be so lucky...
Again, I'm all about jokes. Funny stuff. I have a ridiculously warped and dark sense of humor even. But I never found this funny.
Thankye."
I attached this link with it; https://www.facebook.com/MomofanAngelwristbands/photos/a.128174277239513.21888.120949237962017/882994305090836/?type=1&theater
It was just saying, look.... don't do it. Because it's not a joke and its not funny and it never will be. I know some jokes hurt people's feelings and I do not expect people to walk on eggshells around me, but I do expect people to be mindful of others feelings, not even just mine, but everyone's once they have reached the age of what, 16? Its just common human courtesy. That's all.
Anyway, I was sitting on the porch...Tuesday, even, I think... and the wind was crazy. I was aggravated because our homeowner's insurance was having issues with some of the things that we did when we upgraded our home once we moved. Hey. it only took them 1.5 years to finally realize we moved, even though I told them 3958 times. I got aggravated about a few different things, and ended up very emotional on my porch loveseat with my bacon sandwich and my breakfast drink. Of course, the wind was blowing... but as I was being, emotional, the wind really kicked up. The wind chimes went crazy... I just looked over and stared at them. They just relentlessly kept ringing, loudly, too. I felt like Emma was there with me with her arm around me telling me it would be okay... of course I don't have that in person, but I'd like to think now and again I am allowed to share little private moments with her. Maybe nobody else feels them. Maybe they're not really real. But they are to me.
I can finally see the light at the end of this semester. I have a couple more discussions due on my clinical, and to turn in this powerpoint I put together for my group. On my 2nd half of this semester class, I have quite a few things left to do, but at least its nothing like what was due on the first half, and at least the final paper is shorter, and about something a little simpler. My instructor this class is a bit more lax as well, which always makes me happy.
Angie's household/wedding shower was today. She got a lot of awesome stuff. Personally, we got her 3 towels, a hand towel, 3 dish towels, measuring cups, a kitchen timer, chip clips, an owl towel/mitt set, a heavy duty shower liner, a pizza baking pan, a set of 4 anchor brand glass tumblers, a set of Corelle dishes, and I stuffed it all in a big canvas chevron print tote lol.
I don't have a whole lot else to say this time... unfortunately I've been kind of quiet this week. I've not done anything incredibly interesting, and for lack of better words........its been boring. I am still waiting on the weather to warm back up from this Sarvis winter. Peanut is growing well. I am so hoping to get a glimpse of gender (everyone feels girl, and I find myself feeling the same 99% of the time, even though my intuition may be clouded by my want for a 2nd chance at a girl) on the 15th.
I plan to head to Damascus for a weekend of kayaking very soon. I dunno exactly what we will do with Shade. I wish I had a kayak that Shade could ride in.
Anyway, I feel like sharing this article:
http://www.kentuckyforkentucky.com/blogs/news/15715096-hell-for-certain-kentucky
Very well written, interesting read. And LOCAL, of course.
Speaking of Local, I found out that our fav cafe in London did in fact shut down. Local133 is closed for now:( yet another thing that disappeared in September 2014.
Love you baby girl <3
xoxo
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